this is the last day of my life

i could’ve sworn i said i wouldn’t let it pass me by

though i’m afraid to wait sometimes

i hope the peace in which i rest will cross your mind

i still hear you singing through the walls

hold on to me for when i fall

so you can say i found a way to bring you down

and you can smile

away and leave this town

[featuring gatch]

[songwriter & guitarist for two]

[nominated for best new artist at boston music awards 2021]

but take it slow, we fall so fast

if you take my hand, don’t look back

this is all that we are

you’re all that i have

if you take my hand…

made it all wait on the fast track

staying up late really fucking up my last track

picking up a habit that i never meant to have

calibration for the head

how could i think you were ever better for me?

sunset gleaming on a six speed

fucking you up won’t fix me

i’ve given it straight

don’t risk me calling your bluff

really pissing me off, it’s a, uh

DEAD2ME was conceptualized in december 2020.

it was intended for a different project and used to be titled “trespass.”

i ended up keeping it for two & enlisting KINGSHAL’s help in producing the record.

WHYTRI and i connected through green line records.

“two” received his verse on april 2, 2021.

visuals by orangejuuz.

and confrontation won’t assuage it

i’m giving my all for your expectations

and you know my heart’s still slowing

and the hurt:

i guess that’s growing

don’t you know?

you don’t have to take a shot in the dark.

in the past, could’ve fallen in love in days

now, i don’t trust anybody or what they’re saying

how could i try to believe in words like ‘always’

when you won’t even love me when i’m gone?

we’re halfway through two’s journey now -

she’s beginning to realize that she wants to live

and at the time i made this song

i was about to release “showering with spiders”

finally realizing my musical direction

and feeling revived by collaboration

so thank you for being a part of my journey

and two’s alike

thank you for bringing my music back to life

it’s like i don’t know you

it’s like i don’t know how to wake up

the nights blend to mornings

still stuck on the stories we made up

in the backseat of your car, i counted all the shooting stars

and did you know what i got?

did you find that something?

look at the, uh, look at the screen until you call me

might as well be forever now

i’ve been phoning your number like all week

are you still planning on getting lost?

i’ve been on the road, probably where you want

maybe i wish i could see you again

maybe i could use some time with a frenemy

slow down, rewind

cold weather & droplets

please hold out

slow down, rewind

don’t, don’t let me down now

count hundreds by the thousands

HARD2BREATHE in a sea of accountants

tried to peer into the water but it’s clouded

& it all looks the same grey

i’m not done yet

don’t pretend you never see me out in public

talk about me when you wanna change the subject

half a dozen, watch it turn into a mosh pit

said with soft lips, i could only cross wrists now

progress

never thought it’d cost this

and i mean it, i’m sorry

and i hope you find your way back to the ground

irregardless of the end scene

don’t you know that i’ll always be there waiting?

if you need someone to care

swim, drown in the ap

drifting through the darkness

too scared to let you know

another night, i’m restless

trying not to let it show

you always left me breathless

in silence, all alone

in your eyes, stars swim in nectar

fill my cold lungs with your breath

in my arms, nothing is better

braid your hair right on my chest

till next year, i’ll be here

[as if it were a dream, i awake and forget.]

[お帰り。探していたのはこれ？]

[welcome home. is this everything you were looking for?]

[perhaps… i’ll figure it out.]

your head on my shoulders

i’m watching you dance

patience as thin as my sweater

against the winter, i don’t stand a chance

but it’s all around you and it’s perfect in my head

if i ever found you, is it over when it ends?

in your eyes, stars swim in nectar

fill my cold lungs with your breath

in my arms, you’re light as a feather

braid your hair right on my chest

till next year, i’ll be here

all these songs, right when i met you, filled my lungs with their breath

been so long, hope you’ve been better

place my hands on my ch-

[guitar by mark galle]

[drums by rocco tropea]

[backing vocals by eli olson]

this project wouldn’t have been possible without my friends and collaborators.

my best friend and visual director brian kwon; my closest friends in boston; my video guys in nyc; my hometown friends in california; all my featured artists and video crews;

special thanks to my friends at You’ll Lose A Good Thing and your trust in “two” as a musical foundation for the film;

to my family in your persistent belief in me as an artist and a son;

this project is dedicated to you, and your being a part of my time in college.

well i’m scared that you’ll miss me

somewhere, i’ll be waiting

but it’s only for the best that i save my breath for my run.